I feel a lot better today. I decided to take a long walk... sometimes I find that can actually make you better. Afterall I spent nearly the whole weekend in bed sick! :( I had some errands to run anyway... You wouldn't believe how much time is spent getting Peanut food! lol Since I had to head over to the east side to get his food anyway, I decided to stop in one of my favorite vegetarian restaurants, Dang Lai Palace. After only having a Kashi cookie and juice for breakfast, this was my first substantial meal of the day, a very late lunch at nearly 2 o'clock. Here's what I had...
I started off with their taro spring rolls. Yum!
Then I had their wonton soup...
And I had only some of their steamed dumplings, as I wanted to save room for dessert!
I always get their cheesecake for dessert because it's SO amazing... I don't know if they make it there or get it from somewhere, but it's so creamy and delicious!
I snapped a few pics of Peanut when I got home...
For dinner I had leftovers of Mom's amazing lasagna that I was telling you about yesterday. Thankfully this time I remembered to take a pic! Now it may not look glamourous, but it sure tastes good!
I realize that 90% of the time I just eat Italian or Chinese food! To me those are two of the best kinds of food! So tell me, what are your favorite cuisines?
And on a side note, it's been a year and a half since I've done modeling, and I have to say it's almost a relief to not be part of that world anymore. It is SO nice to be able to eat and enjoy food. To allow (and embrace) myself to be a size 6 instead of a size 0. To eat whatever I want, whenever I want. To not be on a diet anymore. To never go on one again! :) I will always enjoy fashion. I am blessed with good genes, to be tall and slim, and it is important to never take that for granted. No matter what your build, size, etc. throwing your health away is the BIGGEST MISTAKE OF YOUR LIFE! And it is not worth it. I am much happier now and I feel like such a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I can only pray that other people will be able to let go of their eating disorder as I have! If you do have an ED and need support, remember I'm always hear if you want to talk!!! marinajc@rcn.com
That's all for now, my lovelies! xo
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that was an amazing post. sometimes i feel i've recovered, adn sometimes i feel like i'm going back. like right now i feel like i'm going two steps back adn not being recovered. =(
Tra ~ Thanks so much hun. I have been in your shoes many times. Just recently when I got really stressed out, I stopped eating for the most part... it's almost like a natural reaction for my body at times. But I feel like I am passed my eating disorder, because I no longer restrict or make any rules for myself when it comes to food. It is definitely a process, one step forward, two back, like you say. Hang in there and if you ever need to talk I'm here!
sure thing. i feel you on that- i get stressed and dive into disordered eating. =( i'll hit you up on email sometimes for some support! =D
great post Marina! I can't imagine how stressful the modeling industry can be and constantly being under scrutiny for your body -- I'm so happy that your in a better place with your life right now :)!
lots of love,
Jenny
The mushroom sub-in for the meat in the lasagna sounds AWESOME!!!
My favorite cuisine would have to be Indian. But I go through phases.. like right now it's kind of Italian. I'm like.. polenta crazy lol.
I'm so happy for you girl, throwing your health away is a huge mistake. Gosh, life is meant to be lived, not wasted obsessing about something that is not who we really are as PEOPLE. Know what I mean?
XOXO
I understand how modeling world can be cruel and screw up young women. Even we who just watch models on runways have problems with dealing with it, I imagine how it's like to actually be a model who has to be 0 and take all that crap from designers. Good thing you're out of it and thinking about your health!
marina i love your last paragraph! i can only agree with you that after getting my life back and eating what i want i am fianlly at peace with myself. i feel so much better, i can think, concentrate and dont snap at everything and anything!
life is not worth living with an ED and for those who do, well i am sorry for them and that they dont realise what a waste it actually is.
good to hear your better hun. aww i seriously wish you could come here and get to know some of the vegetarian food here. you'd love the chinese, thai and vietnamnese food. its so good! maybe you can come one day. and dont worry i'll have a little bed for peanut too.
loads of love
neela
You are awesome, Marina. I can't wait to meet you- SO happy to read this post and hear how your thoughts have changed :)
Favourite cuisine... That is a hard question! I like Chinese, Italian, Middle Eastern and Moroccan...
My how Peanut has grown. He looks so big now.
I agree with your last statement, it is a relief to beable to not worry about what you're eating. At my place of work everyone is obsessed with dieting and losing weight and I'm so thankful I've recovered and am not that obsessed anymore. It does worry me sometimes that the way everyone goes on about it all the time it may trigger me, but I think I'm strong enough not to let that happen.
Thanks for your inspiring words.
Talyor
I've passed on a blog award to you, check it out here
http://joyofood.wordpress.com/2009/09/30/945/
Taylor
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